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Hate myself at 8:06 AM

Yesterday went to see Singam.
I must be very happy,excited...
But the day was worse
It was all becos of him hate -him a lot a lot-
My face like wht i myself hated for being like that
I noe im a jolly item
So do my mum
i did not talk to my mum for the whole day-don noe why-
After movie we went to eat near my home at 9.30pm
I refuse to eat -don noe why-
I should have eaten cos i ate at 12pm
For whole day nvr eat
Wile waiting for the lift my mum said that
I nvr give her respect by speaking to her for 4 hours
So tat she said tat she will not talk to me
I was like wht the hell,whatever
At home straight went to my bed to sleep
But i cant.Sleep around 1am

Today wake up at 12pm but i was in bed for 2hours
At 2pm only when to take shower
Than don noe wht to do
Should i talk to her?
But i was scared
So tat i stay at my room
Did not even eat
It been 24 hours i eat
My mum don not even ask me to eat
Around 6pm mu mum shouted at me for wht not eating
I said you did not invite me
Than she said she nid to beg me to eat is it?
Than she walked away
In my mind i saidthat whenever i or my mum fight with each other her my mum will always come to me talk make me feel better but she did not do like that so i was still thinkin that she was angry with me
I was so hungry
So i went to my mum to feed me
She did feed me
Than i thought she cool down alrdy
But she did not
This time i talk to her but she did not talk to me
Now also my mum nvr talk to me
But she call me for help only
Feel like dying rather than being like this at my own house
Feel lonely
Want to go to a place where i can find the one who loves me a lot a lot
Than my mum
Im a problem maker
Everyone around me hate me alot-my mum, my sis etc etc-
I hate myself too for borning with this attitude
All my fault hate myself a lot